Do you ever have that one moment in your life when something inside you snaps and there's no going back to wherever it all started. I am feeling it. I am living it with every breath I take.
I see the world and I scan. I scan for all types of people and I try to make a profile for each and every one of them and it is tough because I do not know everyone by their real name. I am crazy, I am dating again, I am happy but never completely. Want to know why? Because I expect too much from people and I am people too but still it never gets anywhere close. I am the type of person who makes sure to return something as small as an eraser to its owner but here I find people stealing my precious AUX cable, my wallet, my money and even my faith. I can't rely on anyone not because I don't trust anyone but because I'm so seasoned from all the hurt and the weird mumbo jumbo of emotions that I've stopped giving a f*ck about anything. I am failing in my semester and am on the verge of a drop but do I care? NO. I used to feel guilty about wasting my parents' hard earned money but now I don't. I'm sick of this life and everything in it.
I'm not suicidal, not currently atleast. But I realise that if you want to have fun in life, it doesn't come to you. You have to find it in bits and pieces and relish it. This story continues forever and ever. I make friends, I don't fit in and everytime I make the mistake of believing that people might be different, I just don't get why I don't fit in. I don't know whether the fault is with me or with the people around me. I spend most of my days high, talking shit, doing shit and I am proud of it because I have made it my life. I will change ofcourse and will not repeat the same mistake over and over again.
I f*cking hate everyone. Nah, hate would be too strong a word. I'd rather say I've stopped giving a f*ck.
Deal with it.
I'm sorry for the outburst.
Thanks for reading.
Stay tuned
Toodles :)
I see the world and I scan. I scan for all types of people and I try to make a profile for each and every one of them and it is tough because I do not know everyone by their real name. I am crazy, I am dating again, I am happy but never completely. Want to know why? Because I expect too much from people and I am people too but still it never gets anywhere close. I am the type of person who makes sure to return something as small as an eraser to its owner but here I find people stealing my precious AUX cable, my wallet, my money and even my faith. I can't rely on anyone not because I don't trust anyone but because I'm so seasoned from all the hurt and the weird mumbo jumbo of emotions that I've stopped giving a f*ck about anything. I am failing in my semester and am on the verge of a drop but do I care? NO. I used to feel guilty about wasting my parents' hard earned money but now I don't. I'm sick of this life and everything in it.
I'm not suicidal, not currently atleast. But I realise that if you want to have fun in life, it doesn't come to you. You have to find it in bits and pieces and relish it. This story continues forever and ever. I make friends, I don't fit in and everytime I make the mistake of believing that people might be different, I just don't get why I don't fit in. I don't know whether the fault is with me or with the people around me. I spend most of my days high, talking shit, doing shit and I am proud of it because I have made it my life. I will change ofcourse and will not repeat the same mistake over and over again.
I f*cking hate everyone. Nah, hate would be too strong a word. I'd rather say I've stopped giving a f*ck.
Deal with it.
I'm sorry for the outburst.
Thanks for reading.
Stay tuned
Toodles :)
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